I have MOVEDDD!!!! New Blog

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looked into my soul @ 2:15 AM

First things first.Leann,I know I've sorted things out over that matter thru sms yesterday but I still feel bad about it.
Once again, I would like to apologise for giving you the wrong idea.You have been so patient and sympathetic when I shared my problems over the phone with you that day.I have ABSOLUTELY no reason to shoot back at you.In fact you will never know how grateful I am for helping me out all this while.So far you have been the only one among my all my frens who truly understands me. I feel blessed for having a friend like you...Really :-)

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looked into my soul @ 11:24 PM

Today was quite good.This is the first in a verrrrry long time that I actually enjoyed myself quite much...although it also has resulted in leaving me really fatigued now.

Celebrated Lieo Jiun's b'day at East Coast Park. For a guy like him, I wonder how he can actually 'stand' getting all sorts of girly stuff as his presents.eg.blossom ppg bolster and water bottle and I myself gave him a really girly photo album! How's that for a guy who actually LOVES pink? Lolz...

Anyway, the day started off pretty well...had cake and b'day song,played in the sea (though i could't again), and had a burying people with sand competition.Unfortunately, during that time, heidi's bag got stolen. Most of us suspect it was the group of people next to us that were likely to be responsible.I do not wish to judge based on outward appearance but those people look like the 'wayward' sort who would most likely steal for a cheap thrill. To make this even more incriminating,while we walking around the place looking for signs of the bag, we peered into one of their tents and the girl there looked kind of uneasy..O well..i shan't point full accusation at people.

I really hope heidi finds her bag asap...her day was spoilt just because of those blooddy thieves! Hopefully justice will befall upon them soon.

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looked into my soul @ 11:09 PM

the adverse effects of boredom...


you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.


which happy bunny are you?
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You're a Shot of Whiskey!


What Type of Alcoholic Beverage Are You?
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Your Heart is Black


What Color is Your Heart?
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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.


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looked into my soul @ 4:25 PM

Will be taking a hiatus from this for awhile until things get better. For now, I'm no longer able to express myself much anymore,especially about the way I feel now and how things are progressing. I will still update this whenever I feel the motivation to.But for now I really have no idea. Things seemto be getting worse, not better.Don't ask me to be optimistic cause I have learnt the hard way now what optimism can do to you. It just fills you momentarily with false hope and later leaves you scarred and disillusioned. NO WAY am I ever gonna let this happen to me again.

Don't try to think you can decipher all my problems.I can't even do it myself; what makes you think you can?

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looked into my soul @ 12:01 AM

I wonder when will I ever be able to see the sunshine in my life again,when will I be able to jump and shout with joy like i used to in the past. All this seems so long ago.I'm literally losing touch with reality.

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looked into my soul @ 11:12 PM

the only one who doesn't get their facts right are both of you.
You wanna know the only damn reason how both of you rose in status in st johns?
I'll tell you why,the only damn thing that the both of you fuckers are good in is
sucking up and kissing peoples' asses.That's the only thing you both have that is outstanding from the rest of us. Other than that you both are just useless lumps of SHIT that's right.Maybe one of you is just smarter that's all.

because of you, st john, a relatively good and useful cca has been transformed into a corrupt living hell hole that feeds mainly on corruption and deceit. IT RUINED MY LIFE AND DESTROYED WHAT WAS left of my pride.Efforts come in and get wasted.They complain about why no one wants to join anymore.I think they need to open their fucking eyes wide and observe this stinking shit-pile that was once a respectable CCA dedicated to a noble cause.Th cause of this moral decay, YOu . ********* and ************* I hope you 2 are happy with all this shit you've done even if unable to read this. But remember one thing though, there is NO REST FOR THE WICKED I hope you both get a taste of your own medicine one day.Don't forget that KARMA IS A BITCH and it's just a matter of time before you 2 get the wonderful taste of RETRIBUTION. Let's ee how you deal with it then. Burn in hell you fucking bitches...go fuck yourselves..quit fucking up the lives of innocent people you FUCKING scourges of 4/7

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looked into my soul @ 7:06 PM

\\\I'm digging my way,yes I'm digging my way,I'm pushing to stay with something BETTER
I'm sowing the seeds, I'm sowing the seeds I take for granted.
This thorn in my side,this thorn in my side is from the tree,This thorn in my side
is from the tree I planted.
It tears me and I bleed.

Caught under wheels roll
I take the leech I'm bleeding me
Can't stop to save my soul
I take the leash that's leading me
Can't take this any longer
I'm bleeding me

I'm the beast,that bleeds the feast
I'm the blood,I am release
Come make me pure, bleed me a cure
I'm caught,caught under///

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looked into my soul @ 6:08 PM